Excuse Man

so i realised that i feel wronged and betrayed by people not recognising my brilliance and asking me to do trivial jobs ...!!! 

and then i feel frustrated that I am being forced to waste my time doing these trivial jobs and so i start blaming them for me not performing to my best of abilities .....!!!

and this is how I pass the blame for not performing by putting it on them ...!!

even if people haven't recognised your brilliance you need to take this as motivation to perform even better ,,,,and not use it as an excuse to not perform further.....!!! 

I need to own up for my performance and stop being an excuse man ...

So I got married guysz
Yup
and something inside me is inherently changing..
I never realized but all of my wants prior to this were in one way or another fueled by my want of impressing girls .
I never noticed it before but now that I am married my outlook towards conversations with girls is changing drastically ...
I can see myself reacting differently to their quirks now ...
any conversation or for that matter anything i did or anything i ever wanted at the base of it was seemed like was fueled by my desire to land my perfect girl.
now i seem to be losing interest in almost all things , especially in people and activities .
I feel like I have to rediscover who i really am now .
I dont even want to change the world any more also now can u believe that
how shallow was i that my want to change the world also was unknowingly fueled by my desire to impress girls it seems

happy b day j .. may u have a great day.... 

magic happens when you don't give up even when you want to because somehow the universe always falls in love with a stubborn heart 

aise hi nahi itefaq se bhag rah tha mein
koi tho karan hai jo baat baith nai rahi
zaruoor yeh usi ki koi saazish hai
kisi aur samay ke aaane ke sanket mein aaj ke intezaar ka aadesh hai ...
tere mansoobe mein khushi se dakhil ho ra hoon aaj ...
chal khele tere dav tere hisssab se ..

surprise me ...!!

Ok so I am loosing again.
losing again to to of my greatest adversaries.
numbers and time.

both are and have always been against me ..!!

paulo coelho

don't listen to your demon who's saying ,"you are wasting time" ..

it's an incredibly exciting thing , this one meaningless life of yours

Tim minchin
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F9qczwJE-Qg&mc_cid=d41f442fb5&mc_eid=922d664aac

You are what you do in your free time 

I have now started to loose my motivation ...!!
Some how i feel just like i felt before ...
hopeless ....!!
there needs to be some change ...!!